It been since a long time i have not written a single blog since my last post. I've been thinking and thinking about problems and stuff so, there's no time to make a single post. iam feeling a bit down these daes, but hopefully things will work out the nex few daes, perhaps?
Today, is quite a great day. Meet my best friend and 'him'. Nt going to tell u guys, who?..
last weds, all the animation club members went to nanyang poly, for a very important course. so important tat we couldn't miss it, says Our teacher.. we went there for 3 hrs and after that all of us were exhausted because the course is making us stress. the course is about how to make an application as we are joining a competition that include a nokia hp??? what the heck, i don't know. but, the thing i knew is that this is a very important competition, says our teacher again..but i prefer the competition that we plan to send to UK! Yahooo!! if our clip make it to the finals of the 'yoscars award', we have the chance to go to UK! love our school! i should not be over-excited as we have not send the clip to UK..humph... i have to be patient as we have to make a little adjusments to our clip.. wish us a very very good luck..
And also, last weds, a few of our members could not attend the course as they have a course of their own at NYP, too.. especially, 'him', my animation club memebers.. (hehe), no need to know who...
he msg me that he want to meet mr shawn, our trainer. his course ended at 6pm, same as ours, and he want to go home with us.. by that, iam so HAPPY... when the course ended, we met him..he is so handsome! omg! in the bus, i separated with my best friend(nothing better to do actually...solo for 1 dae, cn ryte?). iam so bored so i listen to the music.. concentrating on my music(ceyy), then i place my beg beside me as no one was sitting beside me..suddenly, 'HE' carry my bag and put it on my lap and sat beside me! omg... i asked him, ' why u sit here?'(in malay).. he said' wrong is it?' (in malay).. then, i kept quiet and just listen to the music because, i know his behaviour, if iam irritating, he will get away...luckily, i just kept quiet.hehehe! iam so understanding...
BTW, Its my 1ST time sitting beside HIM!!!hhehehehe!!! love that dae!! iam soo happy, till nw!!
so, signing out!
love 26 march 2008! love it very much!!
(and iam confused, y i like 'it' so much?)
seri mai aka strepsil girl
Friday, March 28, 2008
Saturday, March 8, 2008
things has go wrong these few months.i really don't know what to do.i want him back but i am too late n i already make him hurt a few tyms.i really pissed him off.to him,me saying sorry is just 'words'. iam really frustrated that i had done wrong.when can i do something right??! i just want to say sorry but, everthing's too late for me.i send him a message n he rply,telling me that he's a stranger to me. i really sad about it.feeling sad that i let him go at the first place.why?! why i let him go. i shouldn't because he was so kind,loving and understanding.many good things about him that make me love him even more last time.now,things has changed.no one can turn it around as everthing's is too late. i couldn't believe it.iam such a fool to do it.why i didn't use my brain at the beginning!?what's wrong with me? am i sick!? why iam reacting this way.why iam reacting like a fool! i already hurt him once,and why i hurt him again! why i did this?! why?! now,i have nothing in my head.nothing to think.nothing! even nothing to think about my boyfriend.things has goes wild this few months.i don't want to lose someone that once is important to me.i just want to ask myself,why i even have a decision to let him go.i shouldn't do that as i will definitely lose him! i try pursuade him,but i failed,many times.i dun even think that i have the rights to be loved by anyone!i should be left alone! single mingle! i should not be loved by any guys! if any guys has fall in love with me,confirm to be hurt! i don't want anyone to be hurt. iam such a bad girl! :'( why i hurt his feelings? i just wish things would not happen like this,but it did. why?why?why!? he is very very a nice guy. anyone that has become his girlfriend is so lucky! when he steady with a girl, he will really take care of her.he really concerned about her and many more.. :) iam so happy that i get to be his girlfriend,but i blew everthing up. think twice,i don't deceive to be his girlfriend anymore. i already hurt his feelings. what more i can do. the right thing i can do is let him go and be happy to who ever he chose to be with. i can only do that. good news is that he is trying to get this girl's handphone number.wish him good luck. :) i should just let him go and concentrate on my studies and my relationship with my guy.iam sry about the past as iam so stupid to do such stuff.i hope the girl that he chose is a good and nice girl, and better than me.hope he will be happy... :)
cries and tears
seri mai :'(
cries and tears
seri mai :'(