Saturday, March 8, 2008


things has go wrong these few months.i really don't know what to do.i want him back but i am too late n i already make him hurt a few tyms.i really pissed him him,me saying sorry is just 'words'. iam really frustrated that i had done wrong.when can i do something right??! i just want to say sorry but, everthing's too late for me.i send him a message n he rply,telling me that he's a stranger to me. i really sad about it.feeling sad that i let him go at the first place.why?! why i let him go. i shouldn't because he was so kind,loving and understanding.many good things about him that make me love him even more last,things has one can turn it around as everthing's is too late. i couldn't believe it.iam such a fool to do it.why i didn't use my brain at the beginning!?what's wrong with me? am i sick!? why iam reacting this way.why iam reacting like a fool! i already hurt him once,and why i hurt him again! why i did this?! why?! now,i have nothing in my head.nothing to think.nothing! even nothing to think about my boyfriend.things has goes wild this few months.i don't want to lose someone that once is important to me.i just want to ask myself,why i even have a decision to let him go.i shouldn't do that as i will definitely lose him! i try pursuade him,but i failed,many times.i dun even think that i have the rights to be loved by anyone!i should be left alone! single mingle! i should not be loved by any guys! if any guys has fall in love with me,confirm to be hurt! i don't want anyone to be hurt. iam such a bad girl! :'( why i hurt his feelings? i just wish things would not happen like this,but it did. why?why?why!? he is very very a nice guy. anyone that has become his girlfriend is so lucky! when he steady with a girl, he will really take care of her.he really concerned about her and many more.. :) iam so happy that i get to be his girlfriend,but i blew everthing up. think twice,i don't deceive to be his girlfriend anymore. i already hurt his feelings. what more i can do. the right thing i can do is let him go and be happy to who ever he chose to be with. i can only do that. good news is that he is trying to get this girl's handphone number.wish him good luck. :) i should just let him go and concentrate on my studies and my relationship with my guy.iam sry about the past as iam so stupid to do such stuff.i hope the girl that he chose is a good and nice girl, and better than me.hope he will be happy... :)

cries and tears
seri mai :'(

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